It never fails, every time a birthday is looming I get super sentimental. In part, because the person who gave birth to me is no longer with us. Like clock work, at midnight she would either sing or play the Chipmunks or Parchis birthday song to me as a child. I would do and get whatever I wanted for the ENTIRE day, basically she would go more then out of her way to make me (and my siblings) feel special. We would have parties and would get to eat whatever we wanted ( for me it was pizza and Blue Bell Rocky Road ice cream) for my other 2 siblings it was either hot dogs or burgers. We never asked for the love and attention, it was just there. It was who she was. Well, it was a culture shock once I was out in the world on my own, and her gone....and my birthday did not have the same meaning to everyone else as it did to her or myself.
This year was a particularly tough one. I had two pretty debilitating injuries that made travel almost impossible for me. After a pretty important milestone birthday that ended in disappointment, I vowed to always travel on my birthday and do something special for myself....not depending on anyone to make me feel special. This year, I couldn't go far. I was pretty disappointed....and when this happens I feel I have to make up for it for the remainder of the month. I wonder if anyone has the same experience? I would love to hear your thoughts/ experiences with this. I won't go into detail about the cause for disappointment this year....but there were several reasons.
This time at home with my thoughts, recovering from my injuries has taught me so much. One of those being Self Care. No matter what, this is of utmost importance to me now. Whether it be Physical, Mental or Spiritual....I've learned I've got to take care of myself first. I've made an inventory of people in my life, and just like my wardrobe....I've had to do some Spring Cleaning. You HAVE to, HAVE to give your time and surround yourself with those that bring you up and make a positive impact in your life. Life is too short to wait around for people to change. It's not worth it. This includes family or close friends. People change, you grow and will go your separate paths....that's ok. That's part of life. Their purpose in your life is fulfilled and you must move on to more mature and fulfilling relationships.
I encourage you to do the same my friend. If you are waiting around for that boyfriend, family member, best friend or even acquaintance to change....don't. Please put the focus on yourself and do what makes you happy. What sets your heart on fire! It's ok to be in your own company every once in awhile. You DO matter, and your time, your heart and your love are precious and should never go to waste. Give them to the right people and I assure you, you will be much happier. I hope you are all having a great Sunday. My best wishes for you in the week ahead! Much love!
Good vibes always,